Love Songs

The night was filled with pink red purple Christmas lights
Red wine and a red velvet dress
As I sang to myself
Love songs
With Frank and Dino
Ella and the Indigo Girls
Song after song
I sang
I didn’t want to sleep
But sing all night long
With my arms wide open
And dancing with Peggy Lee
Because in singing love songs to myself
I fell in love
With me
And I could see the world differently
Whole and bright and full of possibility
Holding too the deep vulnerability
That is part of love
Like a moon lit ocean
Full of all fears and anxiety
Of how deep my love is
How it will hurt to let go
To hold both the struggle and the euphoria
Like a bottomless well
I will never find the end of
And maybe I shouldn’t
So I don’t know how or when to stop loving