mourning the loss of something

This family friend said this to me today - and maybe it is true on a number of levels - loss of a certain amount of control, not knowing really what is going on inside my body - but also mourning the loss of some innocence - or maybe facing life and death squarely instead of thinking life goes on forever - that life and how I live it is somehow forever altered - I will never see life in quite the same way again. I don't know - it is just something interesting to note right now....