feeling lost

Wow. I am on the otherside of surgery. And feeling kind of lost.

Anyway - it has been just over a week since I went in to Beth Israel. Interesting experience. Definitely a lesson in speaking up for what I needed, even when everyone would say there is nothing they could do and finding ways of getting around the needles. I did start to freak out a little, probably from lack of good sleep. My whole body hurt and felt tender. That is slowly going away.

But right now I feel lost. I don't know where to pick up things. I have spent a lot of energy getting to the surgery, keeping as calm and distracted as I could and through it that now that I am on the other side I find it hard to do anything. It is like my brain and emotions have kind of shut down - expect for profound relief that I am getting slowly stronger.