accounting for life

I know I talked about death yesterday - do today's topic is accounting for life.

It isn't death of I am afraid of - it is another passage - a journey into the light - another adventure to embark upon. And as for Death as a spirit or force of the cosmos - my girlfriend referred to Death as a she - and this is amazingly a comfort to me. So it isn't death I am worried about - it is life

In looking at death I look at my life. I have taken the path that was in front of me. I have tried to choose the best path for me as well as tried to learn from my mistakes. Honestly - I do have some regrets, but not many. Mostly they are regrets of lost opportunities and chasing dreams that I could not make real. I have tried to help others, especially those I loved as well tried to be generous and give what I could to cheers others and let them know they were respected, valued and love for who they were and nothing more. I have struggled between not wanting riches and yet wanting to do things that require money, such as travel. I have also struggle to know how best to both promote and protect my creative self. I have struggled with being alone and with lonliness. I have swung back and forth between cherishing being alone and desperately wanting to share my life with someone. I have cherished friends who I have had for 20 years as well those I make last month. I have loved pets and tried to honorably, lovingly and respectfully let them pass from life into cherished memory. I celebrate my family, my heritage, and the values my parents instilled in me. I am afraid of life and yet I find the courage to live it in a beautiful and creative way.

Finally here are the passions that keep me going flowers, friends, family, Scotland, England, Jane Austen, photography, magic, beauty, words, poetry, light, color, art, music, classic movies, phone calls, Faith, Hope, Love, and Soma.