Creating some positive ground to stand on

I find myself wanting to share about creating positive ground for me to stand on that will help with the depression. In some way this is a push back to much of the hurt I have felt recently but by putting it in a positive light by stating what actions and ideas are positive for me going forward. So here goes:

Let me start by asking myself what positive ground I stand on now?
I am alive
I breathe
I claim the validity of my own process and that it is okay for me to let that process happen in what ever way it happens. I will not be bullied into feeling bad or demeaned about my experience/my feelings or the need to express them. I am not concerned if you think I am being too emotional or dramatic - I have held myself in for years and it is time to just let it out and let it be. Nobody is going to die from what I say or what I feel.
I will have people around me who have compassion and understanding and who are willing to listen with compassion to what I say
I will let this process end when it is over. I will not be bullied or critized for not moving faster then I already am.
I know my process is the right process for me and I will not be made to feel that I am doing it wrong or that what I say and feel is inappropriate, selfish, immature, whining or complaining.
I am doing the best that I can given the person I am.


Now to add to that ground - what ideas and feelings point me to happiness and growing healthier:

I will let this process take as long as it needs to - I will no longer push myself to try to be somewhere I am not nor will I listen to those who think I should be moving on somewhere else or getting over this. It will be over when it is over.

I will express myself and my feelings in what ever way is appropriate for me. This will included everything from rage, hope, joy, disappointment, sorrow, anger, love, deep appreciation, the ridulous, laughter and anything else that comes up. By getting hard-to-say things out of my system helps in the process of letting go of them and gives me a new step to what ever new phase of life awaits me and it gives depression no place to hide.
I will do things that make me feel happy and hopeful.

In claiming this hope:
I have a really hope and sense that this process will bring me to a better place. I know it will. I hope to live life a little differently - with passion and caring for myself - trying to be gentle to myself and to forgive myself the mistakes I made and will make. I have a hope of living my life with a renewed sense of purpose to work toward a goal where other women and myself feel valued, listened to, supported, loved, cherished and honored, safe, particularly from violence against women. I want to move my life in a direction where I can make that happen in a very concrete sense for not just me but for other women as well. I want to try and create a place where things are done differently in a women's circle for the good of women. I want to create a Red Temple for the women of NYC as a place where they can come and relax, make friends, find quiet in the crazy city, be creative, feel connected to other like minded women who are also working to make a difference. I am working on the doing as I dream about this.