On being angry and single

Let the flames of my anger burn
I have a scorched earth policy
And am in no mood for the finer points of argument
For I feel I have been finally heard by someone
Voiced back to me what I have been struggling with
Being single and alone
Can no one hear?
Or Really listen?
Are my points too subtle?
Or long forgotten in your own experience?
That as a single women
I have a lesser status
No one will admit it
We are not a society of equals
That such subtle social structures are still at play
Even to be divorce
Or to have a boyfriend
Means you have been up in the accepted social structure
More than one who is unmarried
No one worries because I don’t have the status
I am a woman with no family
Of husband or children
I wonder if I am an after thought to the family of my parents created
Rather like being left behind or not thought of
Not that they would bother to tell me
If they thought of me at all
Take time from their families to reach out to me
They have busy lives with their own families
And I have none
No family of my own
To the point where the struggles of being alone
Seem to fall on deaf ears
To the blindness of not having the experience
It isn’t that I control much of my time or that I can do as I please
Those are the positive sides of being alone
But being alone
Might have held me back from going after dreams
Because I didn’t have support
Support and encouragement from my family
Or that I settled for lesser jobs just so I could stay afloat
I have not thrived or reached any of my potential
Was that all my fault?
Or was there some hidden forces holding me back
Or not giving my support even when I asked for it
As I tried to do better for myself - alone.
You might quibble that things are okay
My complaints are what everyone complains about
We all struggle with life
And for this I shouldn’t be angry
With myself for never quite figuring out
How to put it all together to make it work
Because I never had the help to make it work
And I didn’t know how to ask
Until now.