Article from the Boston Herald

I just pass this one. I have heard a lot about this Pan Mass bike ride - mostly through that great radio program - Car Talk!

http://bostonherald.com/news/columnists/view/20100808cancer_brings_them_closer/

I cried some this morning. I just don't know that I have to courage that others who have lived with gist for many years have. They have other who can advocate for them when they can not - and I don't feel I have that. And that contributes to this feeling that I am going through this alone. I don't feel as if anyone really has my back and can step in when I can't and that is a very lonely feeling. It takes a lot to be my own advocate and sometimes I feel I can't do it - I just don't have the courage right now. I know I am may by putting the cart before the horse, but I am scared to take Gleevec. I know I don't have to make that descision right now but it is only I who will choose and and feel like it is only me who researches to find a good way for me - and doing that alone is hard and my courage fails me sometimes. I know this really takes a conversation with my doctors, but right now it feels like a monkey wrench has been thrown in after I was feeling so good. I feel good today and will talk about all of this in support group this week. Part of my just wishes I had an answer now.