I feel strong and positive. I have been telling myself all day that I made it through, not just the scan, but through beating cancer. This feel more like an important crossing of a threshold then coming through the surgery. I feel stronger and more positive now then I did 6 months ago after my surgery. I know this past 6 months has allowed me to deal with issues that I need to deal with and I really feel like I have crossed a river into new territory today. I spent my day just taking it easy - cleaned my apartment and had dinner with a friend and watched a movie. All day I rested and for the first time in a long time I mind felt a rest. I really feel I can look to the future with hope and a positive feeling. There is some trepidation in the unknown in passing from fighting cancer to living life I believe with less fear and more positive hope - trepidation being unsure of what those positive changes will bring and coming to see the fight with cancer as the a crucible of blessings that will be played out in the future. I think in my next blog entry I will do a little dreaming for what I hope for in the future.
Until then I will continue to feel like a Queen - in command of a strong positive person.
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