What am I fighting for and Harry Potter

I drink Yogi tea every day - usually at work. Their tea bags always have some wise saying - and here is today's "Live in your strength" - right on.

Okay with all of this positive warrior stuff where does Harry Potter come in. Well, I love the books and movies. The possibility of magic - the imagination - but also that bad things happen to good people and good people can be good earnest warriors fighting a hard fight. Courage is doing what has to be done - but we can do that in a positive way. At the end of one of these movies one of the lines is "We have something to fight for" and that really struck me. So I asked myself "What am I fighting for?"

I don't think I have ever address this question, at least not in such a direct way. And I find it amusing that I am talking about it now versus when this cancer journey began. I know in the beginning I remember making a conscience desicion that I was going to try to be a positive as I could - but as I also remember - I was pretty freaked out about this whole thing. I think I will go back and look at what I wrote.

So here is what I am fighting for. I am fighting for the chance to be positive - to make this my way of living. I am fighting for the opportunity to give back - via Red Tent or my church or some other way that I am not aware of yet. I am fighting for a chance to celebrate my spirituality with like minded people to see what it like to be in a coven. I am fighting for my happiness. I am still trying to discover what that is. I am fighting for a change to create a life full of love and support - I want a life overflowing with it - including a man who loves for who and what I am. I am fighting for the chance to travel, to see parts of the world that are important to me. I am fighting for a chance to see more beauty and laughter and miracles. I am fighting for the chance to have a family of my own that will be untraditional. I am fighting for a chance to laugh more, be happy, surround myself with supportive wonderful friends and family. I am fighting to create - moon cirlces, jewelery, paintings, poems. I am fighting to share me - my hopes, ideas, dreams, pet peeves, weaknesses, even failures. As some of the positive thinking gurus say - "For some good to happen to me" no matter how small and magical. I am fighting to be passionate both again and for the first time.

Fighting for my life - for the life - to be positive and loved - and especially naming these things - really putting them out there for others to see and hear is giving me more self confidence and hope.

I have looking at facebook today - it is a way for me to see what is happening on other's lives, especially my nieces and nephews. I came across two postings, one about doing things that make you happy by an author I like Anne Lamont
http://www.sunset.com/travel/anne-lamott-how-to-find-time-00418000067331/

and an interview about a book on happiness. Along with reading all kinds of stories about cancer, I find myself drawn at this time to things about happiness and being positive. Here is the interview from NPR:
http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=129379708